A Good Night

Last night, I began to drive home.  In the dark, I drove home.  I drove home with things on my mind, but not obsessively on my mind.  I drove home wondering and reading and maybe I just should have driven home.  When I got to my driveway, the darkness did not drive me into it.  I rode around enjoying it and seeing the lights sparkle in the middle of the deep blue.  I rode into the country.  I rode around the block.  I went to my favorite house and when I got home, I went upstairs not to just close my eyes to sleep.  I went upstairs and enjoyed my evening.  I turned on the music that spoke to me.  I washed my face and brushed my teeth.  I donned some lingerie and I turned down the covers.  It felt good to finally lay my body down and forget the day.  At that time, God spoke.  He said, " I will not suffer thy foot to be moved, he that keepeth thee will not slumber."  You can't imagine how wonderful those words felt.  I had been wondering about his love for me.  You know, I have had people say that they had my back and they were presumptuous.  They wanted to have my back.  They so desperately wanted to have my back.  They wanted to be the Knight in shining armour, but the issue is, that they were just as human as I was.  In the middle of them wanting to be there, they realized that they had already signed up to be somewhere else.  They had other families, other loves and other commitments.  They wanted to say that they would always be there, but alas, they could not be.  They simply could not be.  God however, is not constrained by his other commitments.  Just as he is there for you, he is there for me.  He is there for me every time I need him to be.