Your later will be Greater

The progression of most people is that they start out as a blank slate.  Life gets filled with the goings on of the day and it becomes more complicated.  Marriage and children and school and pta meetings fill your agenda until you are an empty nester.  Then life slows to a crawl and you die on a golden pond.  What if God wanted to do something different.  Let's say, backward.  You are born in oblivion and lived a meaningless existence laboring in other people vineyards but never drinking the wine.  Then one day when your bones are creaking and your hair is gray, you find love and legacy wrapped in the same box.  You find money hidden in the crevices of your life that you thought were lost forever.  You look up and you are living the life denied in your early years and you go down...................in a blaze of Glory.

Haggai 2:9 Context

⁶For thus saith the LORD of hosts; Yet once, it is a little while, and I will shake the heavens, and the earth, and the sea, and the dry land; ⁷And I will shake all nations, and the desire of all nations shall come: and I will fill this house with glory, saith the LORD of hosts. ⁸The silver is mine, and the gold is mine, saith the LORD of hosts. ⁹The glory of this latter house shall be greater than of the former, saith the LORD of hosts: and in this place will I give peace, saith the LORD of hosts.

Although the fig won't blossom

I am in the stage of life called transition.  Hormones that use to reign and dominate are fading away.  Sleep alludes me and pain comes without invitation.  My mind weighs heavy on the things of the past and the uncertainty of the future.  Transition is a funeral of sorts.  You say goodbye to what you will never be again and tremble at what you are becoming.  It is joyful and tearful at the same time.  I go from ecstatic to weeping within the same turn of the second hand.  Being a dark person, I like this time.  The stalls are empty, the figs won't blossom but I hope in God.  I know he is up to something truly wonderful in my life even though this has been one big battlefield.

Habakkuk 3:17-19
¹⁷ Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall fruit be in the vines; the labour of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stalls:
¹⁸ Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.
¹⁹ The Lord God is my strength, and he will make my feet like hinds' feet, and he will make me to walk upon mine high places. To the chief singer on my stringed instruments.

He won't Suffer it..........

I am learning how strong God's word is in this season.  My doctor's looked for everything God said I would not have.  They were convinced but they did not move God's word.  It reminds me of concrete.  I did not know how strong and long lasting his word was until man tried to move it and could not.  Man tried to chisel it and could not.  I tried to bulldoze it and could not.  His word is unmovable.  His declarations are truest to the upmost.

Isaiah 46:10
Declaring the end from the beginning, and from ancient times the things that are not yet done, saying, My counsel shall stand, and I will do all my pleasure:

God knew, but man did not know and His word.................stood.

Smiling

I don't quite know how people live without faith.  I don't know what I would do if I did not have options.  The one thing I know about God is that he never runs out of options and because of that, I never run out of options.  Recently, I spent some time in the hospital faced with people who looked like they were at the end of their road.  I wanted to lean over and ask them if they had tried Jesus.  I don't know where I would be without Jesus.  The best part of salvation, in Him, is that the sun is always coming over the horizon.  Tomorrow can always be a better day.  The rain can always stop or the drought can always end.  I believe suicide happens because they can see no way out.  Even if God sat on his throne and did nothing, there is still that possibility and that is comforting.  At least in his killing, he can kill me softly.  Life still has that glimmer like the moonlight on a still pond.  In the midst of a warzone, you can smile and .....................I am smiling.