I am a female and subject to games played on females. Every season, something comes out on the runway that you just have to have. If you don’t have it, then you are out of style and God forbid that you are out of style. In fact, you can look at all the clothes in your closet and deem them irrelevant because they don’t match what you saw on the television set. You can feel such a sense of lack even in the midst of abundance. Now, my life is in pieces. I have had the privilege of spending my life in several places. Most of them don’t flow together. Most of the people in those places will never meet each other. If I focus only on where I am and not where I have been, I feel this immense sense of loneliness like my life is lacking something when really it is abundant. Recently, I began to reconnect with parts of my life that I thought were dead. Just like that, my life had meaning and I smiled a genuine smile. It is alright to embrace where you have been. That is your history. That is your life. I don’t want to reduce my life to a handful of faces and forget the wonderful networks I left to be among a handful of faces. I don’t want to be looking at a closet full of great clothes and feeling like I have nothing to wear.
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