I'll Get It Myself

When I was a neglected child, I learned that my parents were incompetent in their parenting.  Their needs came before meeting the needs of their children.  At the age I am now, I can accept that without anger.  My response to that as a child, was that I would have to take care of myself.  The problem with that ideology was that there was no way in the world I could take care of myself.  I was a child and that fact alone said that I would need some help.  I needed money.  I needed resources.  I needed mentoring.  I could not have become what I am today if someone did not just stop and give me what I needed.  I confess that my own attempts to supply my needs were inferior.  The clothes, that I could afford, were no match for my mentors who could afford to give me clothes far more expensive than I could buy.  I needed someone to invite me over for meals that I could not cook.  I can even remember a sorority sister who taught me how to put on my makeup.  I had no experience doing such things.  She also taught me how to really do Christmas.  I could not do that myself.  The bottom line is that my life would be severely inferior if I tried to do everything all by myself.  This is why mentoring is such a wonderful thing.  I get to do the giving now.  I get to makeup the plain Jane's and I get to supply the leather shoes.  I know that you just can't get everything by yourself.  No man is an island.  Everyone needs somebody.  I a smiling now and about to cry.  I think I will................