Want

Have you ever stopped and realized that the one thing you don't want to do is want.  I am sitting here in my room and I just don't want nothing.  Seems like those surprises that came in little boxes and rocked my world were sometimes good and sometimes bad.  They both tore my world apart.  I don't want to know what is behind door number three.  I don't want to know what is beyond the horizon.  I don't want to foreshadow the morning, I just want to be in a place where I am not wanting.  Wanting is the state of lack that I have been running from for the last six months.  The minute one thing breaks down and I get it fixed, something else takes a turn.  When I stopped and added the mishaps since July, it totals almost 5,000 dollars that I did not have.  The only resource I had was God because I just did not have it.  I did not want to be in the state of lack, but it just chased me.  What I can say about God is that God chased it.  Every where poverty turned, God had a solution and God had a plan.  It is October and I think the flood has ended.  If it has not, God is ready.  He never gets tired of intervening for me.  He is my shepherd and I shall not want.